Thank you
I just want to thank you all again. I am ok. I am looking for a job and keeping busy. I have had a few private Emails and I think you all for those as well. I had a few that I think are more depressed than I am.
I honestly want to tell you all, YES, I loved this man but there was no time to be IN LOVE. There was no passion like with my yummy chocolate man. There was no history like with my husband. Yes, He was a good man, kind, and very smart. He inshaallah may have made a good husband but this is somethign I will never know.
My hurt is so different than anything I thought. I am really ok. I mean I am not in the bed crying and feeling like my life is over like I did with my husband. This man in my head was not a husband yet. We sighned a paper. but there was no weddign or walima and we did not consumate anything. This was our time to date Halal. We wanted to get to know each other before we did something that could haev been horrible for all involved.
From the first day he came to get me I think we spent a few hours alone. We didnt get to connect or bond. We had his family on the cruise and we spent 99% of the time with them. So I never had any alone to to talk to him get to know him bond with him or feel any romantic feelings or otherwise.
I just miss the man I had gotten to know. He was nice to me and my family. I had a wonderful time with him and inshaallah I will go on with my life and be happy. I had 12 days with him. No tmuch history and love you can build in that short of time. So please yall dont be so depressed or sad for me. Yall make me sad cause YOu all are. Yes, I am hurt but like everything else I will get over it. I have been through worse.
Thanks for the prayers and Dua. I love you all for the sake of Allah and for myself
Asalamu Alaykom,
Thanks for writing. Alhumdulillah for your resilient soul. You may not be a millionairess, but you are so rich in spirit.
May Allah give you something better out of this.
My Best,
Yosra
As salaamu alaykum sister. I know you said you’re doing okay but I still wanted to send my condolences. To Allaah we belong and to Him we return. May Allaah give you patience and help you to continue with “livin life and lovin it”, ameen, lol.
I just realized who you are (from intisar’s blog)! It’s a small world! We know quite a few of the same people mashaa Allaah, in the blogworld and on facebook too. I remember you joining my old yahoo group too (hijrah2egypt). Just never knew you had left Egypt…or that you were the author of this blog! Anyway, that’s neither here nor there…take care sister…you are not alone. All of us are praying for you and thinking of you.
Thanks for letting us know how you are doing. yes, I understand what you mean about not being as torn up about this guy simply because you didn’t have the history you did with your first husband. Still, I was just so shocked to read the news the other day. Life can change so quickly. :-/
Asalaam alaikum,
SubhanAllah. To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return. My dear friend…may Allah continue to make it easy for you through this as well as through your future decisions inshaAllah on how you want your life to continue. Allah has it all pre-written…
I am glad you are holding up well, keep faith. My phone number has changed like a week ago, ex harassing me too much…will e-mail you the new number…
Love u tons
Thank you sister for letting us know that you are doing better. I found your blog on Umm Adam’s page and I have been in love ever since. Its bittersweet for me because I am experiencing my own lost as well. Of course, nothing like what you have been through. However I truly find comfort in your words and your perseverance. Your story is amazing and truly touching. I am also an African American female. I am in my early 20s (almost mid) and I am still trying to find the course of my destiny. Very rough road and some regrets but I hope to learn something from each experience. I too have an interest in living in the Middle East and particularly in the Arabian Gulf. However, my interest has more to do with my passion for Near Eastern history, society and culture (a passion that sometimes can get out of control). As a Black female you probably already know my challenges and struggles and I feel I can relate to you in many ways. My sincere prayers to you and your family.
You are truly an inspiration.
Anna
Marshallah, ukhti for being strong through this saddened time in your life. This is a tough and lonely time for you, and no words can explain or apologize..So I will give you can have some of my “Muslimah Hugzz” They do the trick sometimes
Keep your head up and I will talk with you soon. Your in my thoughts and dua’s
Samiyyah