I heard it
Today I did something so dumb. I talked to my ex. If i am going to be honest. I have been talking off and on to him for over a week now. It started with him telling me he was sorry for all the things he did while we were married and then he sent me a text telling me SHE had her baby.
My life went down hill from there. I wanted to just be happy for them..or at least for him, but I couldnt. I became sad. I remembered all the things that happened to end our relationship and that turned into anger……so then why did I talk to him?
Stupid I guess. Maybe a part of me still loves him. Maybe a part of me loves drama…..maybe a part of me….thinks I cant do any better…….Maybe I think I dont deserve any better…….Maybe
whatever it is hit the bottom today. while talking to him I heard the baby . My insides dropped. My heart stopped…….I hung up the phone right away and cried……I cried for the life that I lost becasue this life was made.
The thing is the day they made that baby….was the day my marrage ended…..that is the day I died……
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